You being scared of yourself is that little glimmer of hope saying that you are meant to survive this, you’re meant to fight and beat this and be stronger for it. That small feeling of not wanting to go through with it is EVERYTHING. Take it and make it a bigger and bigger feeling. Im so glad that you went for the help you needed when you OD-ed. Stay stron. Im always here for you
I think I am really sick this time around. I’m so close to killing myself. On accident even. I’m scared of myself. But I feel fine. Which is what worries me. Am I really that sick?